I once heard a joke that went if life gives you melons you may be dsylexic. I think about this; life and melons and lemons; the sweet yet sour-ness of my life. There are many times in life where I get frustrated with my disabilities. I notice how much harder I work to fit in, to stay focused, to understand others, to handle every day situations. I get frustrated sometimes and wish life had just given me lemons like so many, but I have melons. No matter how you look at a melon will always be a melon and never a lemon. So I try to look at the fact that melons are sweet. There are many sweeter things that come with my ADHD, my sensory processing issues, and other little quirks I have. I can remember a lot of little details about something (I'm beast at ispy books). I'm full of facts, sometimes random but I love learning more about things and sharing knowledge (knowledge is power). I pick up on things fairly fast. There's many downsides though, It's really hard for me to focus for long periods, when I do end up focusing it consumes me and I panic if I can't complete the task. I'm extremely impulsive...extremely. Certain sounds, tastes, and textures send me into a fit, they make me panic and not be able to do anything, sometimes it gets so bad that I tantrum like a toddler. I have less cooridination which results in many many injuries for me. Thankfully I've learned many ways to help myself stay on task, calm my impulstivity and avoid chaos. For me textures of three are very calming ( the back of my hair is even cut short and then shaved up a little to create three textures to soothe me when over stimulated). Music is a wonderful way to ease me ( I almost always have a headphone in, it helps me focus more too). My all time calm down is my blankie, but it's not really acceptable for me to carry it everywhere.
I'm not quite sure why I wanted to share all of this...I do know that sometimes it's hard for me to explain to others what is going on in my head, or why I do things that are random, weird, or overbearing. I do want to say though that I appreciate life giving me melons, because melons come in all different shapes and sizes and colors, and sometimes I like being different than the general population of people.
